Face It.   We humans are an emotional lot.   We can't help it  and it is, after all, what makes us uniquely human.   It is our emotional side that dictates how we perceive our world and how we experience our life.

The emotional edge of being human - is basically the main point of target in gang stalking.    Pressing buttons and pushing the mind and breaking the spirit...    All goals - all plans of action and defeat.   From one day to the next...for the gang stalker - it is  easy to stir the emotional pot in society and get someone to jump....humans are predictable after all - 

So, what I am about to write will give you an idea of what it feels like to be gang stalked...    What it feels like to  jump - when you really don't want to.   With that - let's begin.

STAGE ONE - SHOCK AND UNCERTAINTY and DENIABILTY

Shock is the  very first thing that happens to a person in gang stalking when they are being stalked  - and they are not  prepared for what comes next in life.   Because things start to change  - and all too fast - they are unprepared for the destructive force that comes along out of nowhere and blows their lives all over the place.    

The force in this case - is  gang stalking and gang  stalkers and the people they work for in a campaign.    And, of course, neighborhood watch groups.   Pay close attention to this fact - It is the neighbors we need to be aware of first.   Neighbors are the first line of defense and offense in Gang Stalking.   They are the deliverers of ill will.   

As it turns out - gang stalkers - are  the security agents of the now and of the future.     And people from all walks of life - join in -  ...One - because they are hard pressed for money (cash strapped) and can be bought by Security Companies and/or  two - the persons turned stalkers -  are just empty souls who just want to destroy others.

By the way -    unlike the KKK and German Nazi's who were all powerful in their outward hate for others back in the day  - as it turns out- - today's bully - the gang stalker - is completely unnoticed by the world.   They blend in and are hidden from view.  

 Today's gang stalker's are the super spies and the James Bond wannabes.     As far as noticing them - well, You see them and I see them - but no one else does.    It is all about mind control and  gang stalking in this game of manipulation and...   Mind control and gang stalking  -    are all strategic plans to unbalance and break down from within.     First a  person...then  a company...and  eventually world leaders.   The fact that there is gang stalking in our everyday lives - says a lot about the demise of the human spirit.

Believe me - It is one thing if someone is seen and found out (like the groups I mentioned here )- but to be present - active and hurt so much and not be seen at all -  is probably the worst case scenario.   It is a very frightening prospect.     The proof is in the pudding - so the saying goes.   Invisibility in gang stalking - is not viable - not tangible and only  tangible things can be proven.

Getting back to the shock phase or phase one - you - the target in this case - becomes uncertain about what is going on.    Oh, you  feel things.   Unpleasant things.       Your eyes turn a blistering red.   And they are scratchy.  You have terrible ear ringing - pulsing ear ringing - and click sounds that are unaccounted for.  You have bad headaches and body aches.   You begin having jolts - arm flailing - and unexplained energy puffs (a lot of them) at your head while you lay in bed and try to sleep.   You feel burns on your back, your legs and many times in the  internal organs.   When you wake up and look - there are red welts on your body.  Not a spider bite - not a bug bite.     What?

At first, you do nothing  and wait to see if the unpleasant things keep happening to you.   Or you wait for the unpleasantries to stop.    You sometimes go to doctors  - where you are often misdiagnosed.   So, you continue to  wait.   You might wait months - years - and even when the same things keep happening to you over and over again  - you continue to do nothing during the entire stalking routine to protect yourself - to cover yourself up - because - it all seems unreal and surreal.    It could not possibly be happening!

Now one of the things that happens to the target in the beginning of all of this - is  you will feel a  need to find someone to talk to.   We all need support.   We all need to feel close to others.   So, we reach out to family and friends and to just about anyone who will listen.    Will someone understand?   Will someone help?     

And it is at this time that we begin to  contemplate writing letters to the important people who can do something about it - or so we think.    Police officers...The FBI...Lawyers....Private Detectives.    You might even call some of these people - and  when you do - you discover that these service people -  can't seem to help or they just don't want to.   

They tell you they have heard about such things - but say that there isn't much anyone can do.     When they tell you  things like that - it is confusing because they don't even bother to find out what is going on.   To do their job and protect the public.   Why would they be that way?  What don't they care?   Why won't they help?    So frustration leads to exhaustion which leads to anxiety and depression.

So a target begins to sit in a life limbo - and he or she will  sit on one idea or thought because they feel alone and again,  are not sure of what is really going on or if it is even really happening.   Because the enemy - the gang stalker- is screwing with their mind.    And the mind control is already beginning to take hold because it is causing fear.  

In the shock stage, targets feel Stunned.   Alarmed.  Frightened.   Perplexed.  

 Immobility settles in - not because you want it to - but more because you feel terribly threatened - so you vacillate on doing anything in any direction.    You are still in life limbo.

     Don't get me wrong - I am not tearing all of this kind of thinking or being down  - just a reality that's all - this floundering of the target and their brain is the negative side to the whole gang stalking thing and I have been there.   Honestly I have.   I understand about all of these feelings - about being indecisive.     About feeling confused.   

 Gang stalkers go after routines in a target's life and they give the target a routine of pain and suffering to disrupt the target's life and scheduled events.   Making the target feel - extremely frightened.   And singled out.

It is important to note that Clarity only sets in - with experience and understanding.  And if a target is stalked long enough - they come to understand...Everything.

 When nothing gets done or makes a difference for the target or to help the target - a strong fight or flight may settle in.       You can't or don't know how to fight what you are feeling or what is going on - you have truly never experienced anything like this before - so  after you reach out and try to talk to other people -   - and they don't understand - and they don't relate -  and can't help - or they begin to avoid you - you mostly just want to run and hide from it.     

When this first begins  - the gang stalking -  most targets want to see if other people are going through the same thing.  Do they hear anything?   Can they hear the ringing you are hearing?   Is anyone following them?   

   Reaching out helps us to figure it out - are we the only ones?   Are there others?    And all the while - when  we find out - that most people are not being bothered and we are - everything just feels so wrong.   

Not having support or someone to believe in you... can make your life intolerable.   You may even begin to doubt yourself - hate your life.  And have a lot of anxiety.

As it turns out - most targets are too afraid to Stand up to their gang stalking bullies.    For that matter - to any bully past or present.   And why is this?- it is mostly because they are afraid of things getting worse.   And they don't want to draw attention to themselves in a neighborhood or on the job  and they really don't want to be in a fight - and the uncertainty about it all  keeps them paralyzed with unexplainable fear and anxiety.      I have experienced this also.

So then you think about running away -  and you find yourself moving and you  move and you move over and over again - one apartment after another...one home after another ...and even from one state to another and all the while...the stalkers follow. 

Not the same stalkers in the one apartment you just left, of course  -but other  stalkers who are paid and are in place upstairs or next door or below the  next apartment - just waiting there or recently moved there - to make sure your life is a hell and that the stalking keeps going.   Sort of a cat and mouse game.   Or a game of chess.   Strategizing - mapping it out.   Making a move.     

True espionage - but it should not be  happening with our neighbors.

In most cases - the stalking for all targets  is done in the same manner and the reaction of the targets is the pretty much the same across the board and across the world.   All targets are normal humans.   Pretty much  all targets react in the same way and do the same things when confronted - the same routines.    Humans are creatures of habit.   And they seldom vary from this behavior or automated tasking of what is a part of them naturally or innately - their human side.   

Gang Stalkers depend on this routine or sameness for their successful calculations and plan of action against a target..  The more they figure out about the target - the worse the attacks will be.

  And it is important to note that it is during this stage - stage one or shock - the surveillance and  picking at and the beginning of the torturing stage- - that the gang stalker or stalkers  learns all there is to know about you.   Where you work.  Where you eat.   Where you walk.  Who you talk to.   Where you do business.   Everything.

   It is also during this time, that the gang stalker or stalkers  get it all figured out - plan a strategic course of attack   -and  know how they will hunt you.  They know - because we - the targets - give them feedback by our reactions.   Humans are very predictable.

Here is the thing - the only way the attack can possibly be changed in this case - is by our efforts to make a few tweaks here and there from our normal routines and behavior so they will not know us  or really be able to attack us - sort of upstaging their intent and  attacks...and strategy.     By making a choice to be different.

STAGE TWO - RATIONALIZING - RUNNING SCARED AND BECOMING OVERWROUGHT BY THE INSANITY OF IT ALL.  

Once we know what is taking place and we come to realize we are really being stalked - The logical part of our brain has an extremely hard time with the idea of gang stalking and  cannot fathom that people can behave in the way Gang Stalkers do.     We know that we would never do anything like this to someone - and we don't understand how these people can.   

This, ultimately - is the reason that we are targets and they - the gang stalkers - are not.   A person has to have an uncaring side to get involved in hate.    Targets care.

Also in stage two - you somehow begin to know stalkers  are all engaged in criminal activity (lots of it) and it is because of this - you have a hard time expressing this awareness to others.   After all, you can't prove it and it just makes you  look bad to be accusing others without proof.   And anyway, when you try to tell others about this kind of thing - well, they  pretty much think you are nuts.

But we  all  know these stalkers are really out there  doing their thing - living a life by us and around us and going at us when no one is looking.   And for the target - this is confusing.  

For the most part - all we can do is watch.    And wait.    We watch the stalkers go to church -     We wonder why someone is not seeing through them and their lies.    We watch them - incredulous to the idea of them raising their kids - -   and sadly teaching their children how to hate us as well.   We see them presenting an amazing and loving front stage behavior to the world - and behind it all - they are causing us unspeakable pain and suffering to other people who live near them.      There they are - in front of us - doing their human life - and trying to take our human life away.

We rationalize and rationalize and rationalize about what is going on.     And we come up with no answers. 

  Because nothing makes sense.   And it is so exhausting to  have to live this way.    It is at this time - that we come to realize - it is what it is - and we must come to know how to deal with the adversity.   It is important to understand that this is where abstract thinking helps us survive.   If we see it for what it is and not what we expect it to be  - we have a better chance at surviving the attacks.  

During this second stage - a  part of us decides or rationalizes that maybe the stalkers will just have to get the stalking out of their system.   Maybe they will be okay over time and stop.  Have a change of heart maybe?  They look like normal people.   Really they do.   Maybe they will all settle down and go away.    Maybe the stalkers really don't mean to hurt us or hunt us.   Maybe it is all temporary and will be over soon.  Just maybe the person who is doing the stalking... just doesn't understand you and if you could just talk to them - they will stop and be super nice to you.   Maybe ...maybe...maybe.

Ugh!   Please - Stop right there!   Stop ruminating and  rationalizing!!!   These are All Bad ideas.   And here is why.

Stalkers will not stop what they are doing in  any of this - because they are getting paid and well.   So, nothing else matters.   And this pay for hire scenario  - is a prime example of societal corruption.   A corrupt society will eventually fail.

Remember, I wrote in earlier articles on my website - that to understand gang stalking - we need abstract thought to get into the mind of the stalker.    And to survive.

So, let's talk about this.   Again, you and I cannot use the rational side of our mind or brain to get through this.   If we do - we are in for a very rough road.      Gang Stalkers count on you seeing things in a certain way -  Remember the routine?  

 They are expecting you to become weaker over time due to the ongoing bullying and torture and eventually cowing to their advances.     They have watched you for a very long time and they pretty much know everything there is to know about you.     They know  you are a law abiding citizen.   They will attempt to take this one good  virtue away from you over time.   And make you cross the line.  

So stalkers push you to turn bad and be like them with their hate.   They know they can control  how or when you reach out for help and who you talk to.     They count on us thinking they are more powerful and stronger.    And they are Godlike.    They count on and wait for the results they are willing to force out of you.  And they are banking on the fact that you will write letters and call the police on them.      

Sadly, in the case of gang stalking - there is great strength in numbers.    There are - from what I have read - in the millions involved in gang stalking campaigns - and that is why it feels so bad.   

These people are criminal and they all lie and all back each other up.    So, because of this power and the fat paycheck they get -  They are not going to get gang stalking out of their system.   Probably ever.  In real life - nowadays - it is not about sewing wild oats.   It is pretty much what is in it for them.   Like cash flow and notoriety.   Power.    And getting rid of someone they just can't stand.  Us.  

 Today, The stalker feels entitled to our lives and that we owe them.    That they should punish us.   The more time that passes - they become a bigger presence.    And they become cocky and arrogant and become more aggressive.     And more soulless humans join in.   

STAGE  3 -  GETTING MAD - FEELING SAD - FEELING HOPELESS AND GIVING INTO DESPAIR - BECOMING PANICKY AND PARANOID. 

When someone is being bullied for a really long period of time  or has even lost someone in life - they grieve -  they go through stages in their emotions and their mind.   Humans are sad and shocked at first - when a bad event comes their way - but then ...later on...they begin to  get mad.   Mad and sad are the same exact feelings - mad is anger turned outward and sad is anger turned inward.   It is all about being angry.

And mostly - a target spends  time going back and forth between the two emotions.    A roller coaster of emotions and riding it out.   They can't help it - it is how a person copes.     It is at this time that a target may begin to  feel lost or hopeless or suicidal - please don't - there is always a way.     

And God does not want this for anyone - it is not his hope for you.   If anything - suicide is an evil act - and an act that keeps you separated from God.   Look for love and love will find you.  1 Corinthians Chapter 13 - the love chapter.   Please read this - it is important.   www.kingjamesbibleonline.org/1-Corinthians-Chapter-13/

it is in this stage - stage 3 - that we might just begin to lose faith and trust in other people. Even our family.  - we want so much to believe in things. And to have someone to believe in us. When this does not happen - we despair and lose hope.   Our brains become a jumbled mess of emotions and thought.

After we have gone through enough of stalkers following us - performing street theatre on us...pushing on us when others don't notice.    Burning us.    Zapping us with energy.   Sending signals that make us feel sick.     It becomes so tiring.      And We begin to break down and panic and there is a part of us that begins to think everyone is involved.     And you begin to look at people in a whole new light.   Everyone is out to get us.    When this is absolutely not true - it only feels that way.     This is paranoia and this is what gang stalkers want us to become - paranoid.

If we want to survive gang stalking - we have to let go of thinking along these lines. Two things to remember - the world has always had bullies. And there are others out there who are suffering more than we are.

After going through the stuff gang stalkers dole out and it just doesn't stop -  targets may get emotional, sad, feel despair  and then when that is all experienced and done - and they are spent from the emotional exhaustion - The target  finally gets sort of pissed off.   

You may even find yourself  wondering - do you get even?   Do you just keep waiting for it to end?    Do you look for and  find the devices they are using  and take them to someone?    or do you do other things?   Like taking a kick boxing class to help you punch out the built up emotions.      

Remember, we are law abiding citizens - the gang stalker is not.

  In this stage - there are times - You wish the energy they are pummeling you with - would reverse and go back into the stalker's body.   You find yourself hoping that some of the radiation they are driving through your walls and ceiling will be absorbed back into their walls and  body and they will have to deal with a little Karma in their nasty lives.   A little sickness due to high levels of radiation they are using on us, perhaps?

And then later, after we think about our wayward thoughts - We pray f0r forgiveness about having these bad feelings.    A vicious cycle - truly...

When you are being gang stalked - You  are constantly torn about imperfect thoughts and  feeling sad and mad.    And you get nervous, at times, because you are having  stress and trouble coping - feeling guilty about being angry with what is going on.   

Do you get a doctor to help you with your nerves?   Do you get something to help you sleep?   Keep in mind that if you do get help - just tell whoever is treating you that you are feeling a little nervous or anxious with your life right now.      You don't have to give them the whole lowdown on the stalking.  Because They will not believe you. 

   The secret is to keep some of the control and power in your life  - and not to give it away  - you can do it.  We all can.

In Stage 3 -   you might, in fact, join a support group - so you can sound off and feel like someone is really listening.  This stage -  is a defining moment for the target because - where you are in the mind - and where you are at this very moment - - will help you to determine the road you will go down in handling this situation.    Being mad about the stalking can actually help you turn this ugly thing around.   Having others to talk to who are going through the same thing is really helpful.

STAGE 3 AND 4 -FINDING SOLUTIONS...   AND BEGINNING TO SETTLE IN HEART AND MIND.

Stage 3 and 4 go together.   It is during this period of time that you start to research, and reach out and figure out things you can do to make what you are going through livable.    This is the period of time when we all  fight back - their devices up against our blocks and protective barriers.   Tit for Tat.   It is a period of time when we take what we are dealing with and also take the time to teach others so they are not bogged down by despair and hopelessness of being stalked.      It is a time that we share with others.  And this is really important.

Now you are probably wondering why I have not talked about sending letters to people.   Well, I did this actually  - about a year into my own stalking - to the FBI, and I even went in person to the police department....they or someone who is I am guessing a gang stalker In one of these organizations - turned my letter asking for help or what I told them, over to my neighbors who are stalking me.   The stalking now is extremely nasty.    Very bad...to say the least.   

I was lied about and now I am considered - I believe - a dynamic risk and I am on a fictitious watch list - a nonexistent list that allows the campaigns to hunt their target - it gives them card blanc about what they can do to punish you and teach you the gang stalking lesson.   My stalking is probably heavier than most.  One, because of my website and two because of the smear campaign my next door neighbor started about me.  It has been so hard - very hard.  But having you to help and care about and share with on this website - has made everything so very worthwhile.

By the way - this is a very complex situation everyone - this letter writing - we think it is a simple case of telling someone about what is going on and getting that person or persons  into trouble - amazingly - in this case - it normally does not bode well for the target.  

Gang stalking is a well thought out program - and when in place...well enacted.     Extremely disciplined and controlled.      Stalkers have all ends and all areas covered - it is, after all, your word against all of theirs.   And there are many of them all standing together.    And you are just one person.    So, in my mind -  we need to keep a quiet determination and have a strong mental edge on survival.    Leave the stalker guessing on how you really feel - don't tell them anything.   There will come a day that we can do something to make a difference.

We must learn to pick our battles.

Stage 4  is when we put our minds to the test and rest - we come up with amazing concepts and blocks and keep going.   Because we know that in the end -   when one thing does not work as well - we find another.   

We keep an open mind about what we are feeling and know that at times...the energy is not so bad when we are forced to feel it coming through the walls of our home.    The energy they are sending to us is - as it turns out - a part of our human body and spirit.     It is a part of the earth and we are also a part of that as well.    So the more we can build up and also cover up - will help determine the outcome.

 And really - God is with us.    And with God - all things are possible.   

Once we get to this place in our mind and hearts - we have very little time to be afraid - or very little to be afraid of.

 In stage 4 - we compare notes with other targets.   And we begin to look to find comfort.

STAGE 5 - FEELING CONTENT - AND BEING THANKFUL IN AND FOR THE MOMENT.

No one said that life was ever going to be perfect or easy.    Because it truly isn't.     The world has always been at war.   One country against another - one man against another.     And this cycle of living has happened over and over and over again.  Billions and Billions of times over.

When you look at the dynamics of the earth - History shows us that very few people have had comfort.   They were servants to a higher source or  power.      They were suppressed and enslaved.    They had to overcome great obstacles and adversities in order just to live.

So, my question is - why do any of us today -  think we should be treated like we are the most important human or being in the universe or that has ever graced the earth?     That we are so unique or special?    How is this even possible?     

It is one thing to be confident or contented...and entirely another thing to believe we are better than others.   This thinking...and mainly this thinking - is why gang stalking is a part of everyday life for many now.   They know that because we feel we are special - taking the specialness from us through gang stalking will break us down.   And in many cases - this works.

AND AS FAR AS IMPORTANCE IN WHAT WE ARE OR WHO WE ARE - THE TRUTH IS - WE ARE ONLY AS IMPORTANT AS WHAT WE DO OR WHAT WE PUT BACK INTO THE EARTH.   

The care and nurturing given to the earth and to others...is the only thing that matters.    This and this alone - gives us humanness and  a special quality.    And even in the bad times like gang stalking - we can be this way.

  So, if we are not doing this - not living  our lives for others and for other things like taking care of even the smallest insect in nature - we are not so special and even then - we are just people passing through time like the billions before us.   

A soul  travelling the earth in a human body and not - in fact - a body dragging around a soul.  

It is up to us to find ways to think past the stalking we are experiencing - to think past the hardship -  to feel peace and joy in the moment we are in.   Remember - we get what we get.   All of us do.     It is hard - but  we can overcome obstacles.   And underneath the hate and the turmoil our gang stalkers give us - is the knowledge in us that we can love and forgive and get past the bad.  

If it is fear that is  keeping you from finding that place in your heart - let it go.     And you will feel rewarded by the strength and by being brave.  And by knowing that God is so very near.      Someday - stalking will end - all things change.     You can count on it.   

Sincerely

Carla